Monday, January 14, 2013

My Story




"Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare." (Psalm 40:5)

As I I sit here the song "Life and Favor" is playing in my ears. The first words of the song are "You don't know my story." How true these words are for all of us. When we look at a person, we have no idea the story behind the person we see standing in front of us. I feel these words are especially true for me right now. Those who look at me, who see me now, have no idea of the things that I have gone thru. They have no idea of the things that I have had to overcome: poverty, lack of education, divorce, single motherhood, low self-esteem. There has been a long road to where I am now: multiple degrees, pastor, position in global mission. 

Some people may think that this life was planned. They would be wrong. Some think that I pushed and pulled and manipulated my way here; they would be wrong. My journey has been more like one crisis after another averted and then a move on. This is not my own doing. For me to have orchestrated my path would have been impossible.

I know despite what anyone says or thinks that this, my present life situation, is all God. I have gotten here inspite of myself, my faults, my mistakes, my inadequecies. My only prayer is that my life might be a witness, a testimony to the Grace and Glory of God.

I'm just rambling.